It might seem like a small step, but for Simpson it’s a symbol of her new desire for independence.“I just feel alive. I feel like I can do anything and there’s nobody to answer to but myself,” says Simpson.“It’s been hard, but I’ve finally come to the realization that it’s okay to not be perfect.She makes her decision sound like the first step toward growing up and taking charge of her own life. “I didn’t want to let my fans down, my family down.But then you just have to realize that if you’re not happy, you can’t make anybody else happy.It was during filming that sources began to whisper about an affair between Simpson and her costar Johnny Knoxville.“I can’t save anything from being talked about,” she says, when asked if there’s any truth to that rumor, “because then it becomes this game, and it’s not a fun game.At its height, more than four million viewers tuned in each week to watch their fights over laundry, cuddle sessions on the couch and unintentionally hilarious conversations (“Is this chicken, what I have here? And so in Hollywood, where celebrity divorces are not exactly uncommon, this breakup has attracted more than its fair share of attention.In less than three months, for example, “It’s totally out of control,” says Simpson, who recently rented a dozen different vehicles in a single day to evade the cameras. “I almost peed in my pants,” she says of one such incident.
But those require minimal involvement on her part, and she sounds less ambitious than she used to when discussing other areas of her career.
When you walk away from something and there’s no gravitational pull, then you know you’re doing the right thing.”Her mother, a devout Christian who has often extolled the sanctity of marriage, actually seems proud of her daughter for leaving the relationship.
“It took a lot of strength to know what she wanted to do and divorce Nick,” says Tina. But I always tell my girls to trust their instincts because women have an innate sense of things.”On her own, Simpson is learning to take care of herself, which has many of her intimates breathing a sigh of relief.
DETAILS ON JESSICA AND NICK’S LAST DAYS�AND HOW HER EGO, PARTYING, AND DAD DROVE THEM APART and NEW CHEATING BOMBSHELL! After all, Simpson and Lachey had become stars by allowing fans into their lives.
Both had enjoyed successful enough singing careers previously, but it was their MTV reality show, that catapulted them to fame. Many fans came to feel they actually knew the Lacheys on a personal level, following the ups and downs of the marriage as if it were their own.